The Hug That Changed Everything

So I just (and finally) published the post that I wrote last March 25, 2022 which was the day after Tom's birthday. I didn't publish it then because I got terribly distracted. That was the moment, upon finishing that blog post (that was full of woe and sadness about Facebook and cake and candles and Burmese food) when I had the most profound spiritual experience of my life. I had had several amazing experiences previously (but only after Tom's passing never before) which I will talk about later, but this one was simply beyond anything I could ever have imagined.

Here goes...

So I was sitting at my desk in the corner of my bedroom just as I am right now. I had just finished writing the blog post about my sad and confused feelings about Tom's birthday and Facebook, etc., when I heard a rather loud noise behind me. It was like a thump or dull thud. Whatever it was, it caused me to turn around and look. There was nothing there and nothing seemed to have fallen off the shelf or anything. So I turned back around to face my computer again when I felt a presence behind me...it engulfed me like a hug but different from a hug. But it was definitely a hug and there was no doubt in my mind that it was Tom. I was overwhelmed with love and joy and SURPRISE and it's very difficult to put into words. And as I was experiencing this overwhelming sense of other worldliness and warmth and happiness, I heard in my own head but in Tom's voice: "Mom. Let this go. Facebook is not important. Who cares. None of that stuff matters. I'm okay. It's all okay. I love you." And that was it. He disappeared and I cried and cried with such joy. Joy is the only word I can think of. And even now, I can hardly believe that it happened but it did. It absolutely did! And it feels really good to share it!